just came back from tp. (i almost typed "just came back from school") i still cant imagine three years of poly life just swing by like that. taking bus 9 and changing to bus 8 at block 201, brings a lot of memories. i must say poly life has transformed me into a different kelly. in this post, im just going to talk about the three years and its going to be a long post i would think.

year 1.1
imagine me, wearing oversized jeans and an over-stretched giordano polo tee. the length of my jeans was so long that it dragged on he floor. i was carrying a canvas bag and my eyebrows weren't plucked. make-up was foreign to me then. i met this bunch of people called classmates and it didnt take long for us to got really close. i rmb STD group, du nu ren, orange pen and we would even arrange to wear orange on the same day. took loads of neoprints whenever we went. during mid term break, half the class went genting tgt. it was damm fun. it was the first time i went overseas with my friends and we came back spore wishing the holiday could last forever.

i rmb BCS. i hated that subject but i liked the company. i rmb cheating in the test and asking gladys to save her work in thumb drive and pass it to me. i rmbed studying very hard during exams cuz everyone around me was studying very hard and i was stressed. but it was gd stress cuz they helped me be more focused. they made me understand the "play hard work hard" theory. r/s was bad. i rmbed crying every night when i found out he liked someone else when i was trying so hard to get him back. i felt so lost, so alone but thankfully i had boonkiat, crystal and tracy who really listened to me and accompanied me. after a tough struggle, we got back tgt. and things were really good. my first major lesson i learnt from r/s: cherish and be contented.


yr 1.2
new classmates, new semester, lesser time to meet 1.1 friends, felt so alone, started skipping school and got my 1st warning letter. almost failed statistics and i had quite bad results. r/s wasn't as smooth by that time. it was pretty dry and naturally, things got worse. i hanged on for the sake of hanging on cuz i really couldn't let go of him. i put up with everything and anything just so to avoid another big quarrel. i thought that was the way but i found out much later i was wrong. i had practically little or no new friends made in 1.2.

i started knowing more about make up and plucked my eyebrows. i applied powder and blusher to school and dressing improved. on and off in the whole of year 1, i met up with my pri school friend around three times or so, his name was kong kok kuan(kk). of cuz i met up with him only when i wasnt in a r/s with ws. trust me, i had countless break ups and patches with him in yr 1. and i wasn't allowed to go out with guys alone when i was in a r/s with him. but thing with my pri sch friend disappeared, lost contact after i got back with ws.

yr 2.1
hello sentosa. new classmates again. stick around carene and sijia most of the time. sentosa was so far that i had so many temptations to skip classes, practically almost everyday. lucky thing my dad send me there when i had morning classes. started to grow closer to carene and school became much more fun. went tanning once with her and sijia after school. got to know more poly ppl and slowly, i adapted myself to sentosa. i still missed tp though cuz by that time, ws got into tp but he was one year my junior.

make up was a must. i started to doll myself up and shopping was addictive. i bought things on impulse and my cupboard became full. i could change bags every two weeks unlike yr 1 where i stick to one bag through the whole semester. relationship was still the same. very on and off, very tiring but still hanging on. grades for that semester wasn't fantastic and somehow, TKC was formed.

yr 2.2
knew lavinia better and started growing close to her. i realised she and i have a lot in common when it comes to r/s problems. so den, i started confiding in lavinia and carene and we became close friends. we were also project mates. after school, we'll head to town for shopping and slowly, i met lavi almost every morning to go sch tgt. she stays two bus stops from my house only. started to bitch about people and had gossips. after school end, i would travel back to tp to meet up with ws and we'll go out. slowly, i realised that lavi was doing the same thing so we would travel back tgt to meet our bfs.

this was the first time i was a little crazy over a lecturer in school. but i wasn't the only one. we would squeese into one lecture hall even though it wasn't our lecture day cuz we wanted skip school on friday. and if we skipped sch on friday, we wont get to see him. r/s problems was accumulating and it was too much to bear. many things we quarrelled about and soon, i couldnt be bothered to go anything about it. results in this sem was just so~so. but i was happy that i could pass everything. and of cuz, going back to tp was just great. i don't really miss schooling in the sentosa campus and i couldn't wait to go back to tp.

when finally i could be in the same school was ws, we broke up, and now, i cant recall when we actually broke up.

yr 3.1
i became so close with carene that i see her almost everyday. started to talk about a lot of things and shared loads of stuff. somehow, i started to be a social smoker and i think i must have shocked quite a few people when they knew it. break up was horrible and i think i kind of lost myself but thank God for girlfriends like lynny and sickos and carene and lavi. i managed to pull through. and the almost magical thing, primary school friend, kong kok kuan(kk) popped back into my life. started going out alot with him and before i know it, i think we were dating. it was the first time that i experienced dating and it really felt nice.

this was the biggest turning point i would suppose. this was the climax of poly life. i felt very lucky as i felt that i had all i wanted. i had gfs who were there and i had a guy that was so patient with me. yes, that guy is kk. i started going out a lot with him so naturally i talked to him about alot of r/s stuff. i kind of wanted a guy's point of view on r/s so i guess that was why we had so much to talk. i didn't even know if i liked him, even if i did, i think it was because i had attention from him. trust me, i was quite ignorant on his feelings for me until one day, i think carene or lynny asked me if i liked him. i couldn't answer cuz i didnt know. cuz i just ended a 5 yr r/s and i never knew wad it is like to be dating. i didn't even know that people thought i was dating him.

make-up was essential. i started carrying make up pouch in my bag. it had the same importence as hp and wallet. i learnt a lot of things from carene. i realised how a materialistic the world can be and it opened me up to A LOT of things in life. grades were alright this sem. slowly, me and carene has lesser meet ups. same applies to lavi but we still meet up here and there. i couldnt control my shopping and i started to become a fashion victim. my dressing improved really a lot from yr 1. i started wanting to look good in whatever i wear and i could take up tp half an hour deciding what to wear.

kk slowly took up part of my life. this is the best part of poly life, seriously. knowing him was like the cherry on top of the whip cream.

yr 3.2
internship at meritus mandarin. i knew great people and i had a taste of working life, i witness how ugly people can be. i saw for myself what people will do just to get a promotion. working life was harsh but i was glad in my dept everything was great. we were all like a family. i started getting sick of make up cuz i had to apply it 6 days a week, plus on my off day when i go out, i apply as well. okay, and it was also the first time i saw sagging boobs. it was quite an eye opener, seriously cuz working in hotel meant that u had to change in locker rooms and everyone there change as if no one is looking. so naturally, i saw older women's "you-know-what".

dating was almost like in a r/s when i started working. and soon enough, we got together after 6 mths of dating. to me, it felt super fast but to kk, it was super long. we still argue on that childishly up till now about the dating period. okay but nvm. finally after the internship and everything, i graduated. no doubts, i learnt a lot.

a long post, i know.. but just wanted to write it all out.

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