i had some wierd dreams lately.. prolly was too deep into my lala land.. haha but anws.. had a nice weekend.. tho the only sad thing was i lost my pair of coach slippers.. liked them a lot cuz my sis bought them for me from overseas and its really nice.. bt anyhows.. it isnt anyone's fault la.. so KK, if u happen to read this post of mine, dun feel too bad abt it k.. u gave me a wonderful n pleasant surprise in wee hours of the morning.. n honestly, i didnt expect tt at all.. i really liked it.. *smiles*

hrm.. my sis got admitted into CGH last nite cuz of appendicitis.. same as me n my bro.. haha.. it runs in the family la.. bt shes fine alr so tts gd.. hope she'll recover soon! had some tots today while in the hospital cuz i was kinda bored.. my sister was slping and i went down to the fish pond to sit and munch on pocky.. and it striked me tt maybe im nt tt impt afterall.. in the ward, i cld nt take it n my parents were there.. it seemed like its a different treatment when i was the one in hospital tt tym and my sister in hospital now.. my parents showed so much interest n concern over every single thing.. so i rushed to the toilet and wept.. tts wad triggered my thinking abt loads of stuff.. nt gonna blog it down tho cuz i tink its too personal.. my life to me seems like it's full of nothing..

on a lighter note.. i tink im gg to receive the vintage belt soon.. bought it online and i cant wait for it to arrive! haha.. liked it loads.. my dad just gave me the balance of my "pay" and tink i shall buy smtg nice for myself when im out shopping.. hahas..


i cant believe the words tt u said to me.. till now.. they are still as piercing as ever.. u seem so unfeeling when u said tt or m i just too sensitive? i believe that things will find their way thru somehow and i hope tt wadever which has been done will be better for us.. ive decided to b selfish now and i dunno if i made the right choice but at the same tym.. u cant expect me to just sit dere and wait.. wad if ur words dun match as to wad is gg to happen? its too big a risk.. i was reading thru all my inbox today and i deleted some msgs which brought back unwanting memories.. no doubt u made me smile.. bt u cant deny tt u made me lousy esp since im a girl.. perfection is rubbish.. and i hate the word "change".. the human language proves to b the most toxic of all cuz that is wad makes things hurt.. a simple word, so innocent yet stinging cld be the deadliest poison of all.. i need tt hard push of determination this tym to really let it all go.. i believe ive made enuff u-turns alr.. i pray tt one day things will just fall in place as how it has been planned..

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