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Saturday, January 28, 2006

one week has past.. so much has happened.. well.. first of all.. my sister's wedding was wonderful.. despite all the cursing and yelling.. i finally decided to compromise and tell myself tt its all worth it.. seeing my sister so happy and stuff really made me glad.. in the morning wen we had the tea ceremony and the travelling to my bro in law's hse.. it was fun la.. and his "brothers" who were all in suits and were his camp buddies.. who were all so big and fit.. looked like bouncers la.. anyhows.. the prepartion was fun.. with sarah, erica n jia in my room busy dolling ourselves up and sarah did my hair for me! so pretty.. thks loads gurl.. the whole wedding was wonderful.. wonderful.. wonderful.. all the yum seng and stuff and the shaking of hundreds of ppl's hand at the end finally made me collapse in bed when i got home like 2am in the morning? tired was the word.. but i really had a great time.. and im sure everyone did..


wedding aside.. den it was the rushing of projs.. boos.. all the compiling and sending here n dere and editting and meeting up was really tiring and to top with the fact tt i was emotionally drained by all tt happened.. all tt i came to realised really made me break down into tears finally.. oh gawd.. it was farking hysterical.. i nv knew i had so much insyd me tt i had to let out.. anyhows.. still managed to enjoy sch with lavi n rene.. all the meeting of gg sch with lavi and the chats to and fro school.. its amazing how close i am to her.. the craziness we had and all the talks.. it really made me open my eyes and wondered wad im gg to do from now onwards.. so many farking things happened this week.. in sch, at home, outside sch, basically everything.. wondered how i actually coped the laughters and tears and balancing them up.. it was really two opposites happending at the same time..

i seriously dunno wad ive been up to the whole week.. days seem to be passing so fast and all my emotions seem to be all fast forwarding to the next day.. but one thing i hated most was my imagination.. it made me so happy for a sec and it cld make me so depressed.. i hate the feeling.. as tho im in a parachute high up in the sky and i just suddenly plunge down the next minute.. y isit so tiring to love someone? its bcus u love someone tts y it is tiring.. to put up with the shit tt u were thrown to and to give off twice the shit and twice of the shit returns back to u.. nobody bothers to clear it up.. hearing all the talks by lavi and all she went thru somehow knocked into me tt i cant possibly just stand here watching ppl move on while i just stuck here in the middle of the current and just following where the current takes me to.. this week cld hv been the most horrid week ever.. everything was just jammed into the 5 days.. and seriously.. im surprised at how i handled it.. and i wonder how much more shit tt dere will be.. oh fark it..


had reunion dinner with my family and my father's side relatives.. was out w lavi n rene in town and stuff b4 the dinner.. took loads of pics.. oh yah.. we went chinatown last week and took pics.. alr uploaded the wedding pics but im just too lazy to post them here.. and i dun really noe how.. so wells.. yah.. dinner wad nt bad.. catched the last episode of love concierge.. im happy w the ending.. but if only everything could be like tt.. all nice n swt at the end.. with everyone getting wad they wanted.. sighs.. oh.. and my dad's company just got him a new car.. and it came today.. it just makes me more motivated to hurry get my liscence.. with another new car.. i really dunno how my parents r gg to cope with the shifting of 3 cars everyday.. worse still if my sister came back and dere will another car in the hse.. i wanna drive too! bleaghs.. shall sign up for practical asap..


cny's coming.. but i dun feel the festive mood really.. prolly cuz of the mentally drained week i had and a big celebration of my sis wedding last week tt makes things seem not as formal as they r now.. guess its just some adjusting tt needs to be done.. rights.. i dunno wad else to say abt tis week cuz im too farking lazy to type alr.. all i noe tt its been one helluva farking week.. and i dunno if i shld smile and rejoice or cry and regret.. oh fark the whole thing.. i need to get away..





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