met up with sickos ytd for dinner.. went to eat pasta mania and we got a 30% discount cuz ping knew e person dere.. from 30 27 plus dollars bcum 19 plus only.. haha.. talk abt all of us being on budget.. and yeshhhh dere is this guy working in phin's restaurant.. he is gd looking larh.. me n sy tot he looked like ivan.. but anws.. yahhh he is handsome.. den sy parents came and we went gelare.. got to see tt handsome guy.. i tink amelia was kinda crazy abt him.. shifted our ass-es to star bucks and due to us being on budget, 4 ppl shared 1 ice mocha.. haha.. den yx ccame n join us all e way from choa chu kang.. her butt must have rot sia.. didnt talk for long but it was nice la.. took some pics and we left..


oh yah.. and i worked tt day too.. it was quite okay.. i was a bit slow in e beginning cuz first day.. dere were 2 other talet scouters working with me but we didnt talk much.. it was more like hitting ur sales target.. den we waited at mrt for trains to come.. den secretly went into wisma too.. a manager was dere oso la.. nt really manager la.. jus like a person watching over us helping us to look for ppl.. den she very funny.. she will point n point in a secretly manner.. like : ehh, tt green top ger" , " ahh tt one wth the zara bag" or " the black skirt one with the bf".. its a bit stress oso when e other girls got other ppl's nos. and i dun have.. its like.. i was despo and i guess tt is wad pushes me to keep finding.. finally i caught up with them and e manager at e office said i did a gd job.. *phews* tt was quite comforting.. i tot i did quite bad.. gonna work next week again.. tue wed and thur.. kinda look forward cuz i start at 12 and by 2 i will end.. mabbe go out after tt.. and yeah! lyn is coming too.. i guess this job is gd cuz its fast money.. one person u get is 2.50.. so they kinda have a quota for e day.. tt day was 15.. so 15x2.50 is e amt u get.. and it adds up to 30 plus in 2 hours.. *grinns* and aft tt, its shopping! talking abt pay.. i havent collected my SSC pay yet.. 40 plus.. hrmph..


well, just came back from changi village with my family.. ate indian food again.. my parents like indian food so much.. n my mum even suggested gg to india.. WAD THE..? but it will nv happen.. she say want to bring me shanghai shopping last year still havent go yet.. den wen i was in sec 4 she said she gg to bring me to hong kong.. i still havent go yet... ugh.. and i baked almond choc. chip cupcakes today!!





its really nt easy for me
so dun say tt i m making it sound difficult
wad gd do i get outta tt huh?



sometimes we go all out in search for truth
but when we really come upon it
we wish we knew nth at all..

humans...



had a talk with my parents over dinner.. my dad say after poly he's gonna send me to a uni.. and he asked me to check out aust uni's.. he said for my course go hawaii is gd.. it's like so far.. but i told him for my hospitality diploma, switzerland oso gd.. he said to go n find out info.. at tt instant, e first thing tt came to my mind was nt going dere and living alone or having to fit into their society.. but it was my r/s.. its really gonna be a big test.. shld i take tt gamble.. sheesh.. i felt so.. i dunno how to say.. sad? abandonned? far..? e tot of surviving overseas alone scares me.. e tot of surviving dere and being kept away from my friends freaks me.. e tot of having to cope with my r/s and studying and missing home makes me wanna cry.. but i noe, tt is when life really starts, tt is when i face my biggest fear/challenge.. (him) i cant escape..




talk abt growing up.. sometimes i wish it werent tt complex..
i can feel as tho i m gg to be pulled from every side next tym..
studies, FAMILY, HIM, and myself..



its a knot tt only GOD can untie for me..




i guess this is a long post huh..


-sighs-

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